From Red Pine’s translation of the poetry of Tao Yuanming, Choosing To Be Simple. I’ve had this title since its release last October but held it with patience as an end of academic year treat as Red Pine’s choices never disappoint.
The intro to this poem reads: “Written in the eleventh month of 405 [CE] near Shangjingli. Yuan-ming was forty-one. According to Confucius, a man should be free of doubts at forty (Lunyu 2.4). Yuanming moved to Pengze at the beginning of autumn to assume the post of magistrate – a post he quit eighty days later. The poem begins with the boat trip home —wonderfully depicted by the Song artist Li Gonglin in Returning Home. During the Jin, Pengze was located on the east shore of Poyang Lake. Yuanming’s home was across the Pengze Channel, fifty kilometers to the west.”
We were poor and couldn’t support ourselves by farming. With our house filled with children, and the rice bins empty of reserves, we didn’t have the means to go on. Friends and relatives had been urging me to serve as an official, and I finally considered such an unlikely path. It sometimes happened that I had things to do in the area, and the local notables thought me a considerate person. Knowing I was poor, an uncle found me a job in a small town. Conditions there were unsettled at the time, and I was worried about serving so far away—Pengze was a hundred li. But since the salary from government fields was sufficient to supply me with wine, I accepted. However, it didn’t take long before I thought about going home. Why? Because my nature is simply too independent to be bound by pretense. Despite the pain from hunger and cold, that from disobeying myself was even worse. Whenever I have engaged in worldly affairs, it has involved working for my mouth and stomach. Reflecting on my lifelong principles, I felt depressed and ashamed. Still, I hoped at the end of the year I could pack my clothes and leave at night. Then it happened that my sister, who had married into the Cheng family, died in Wuchang, Hence, I gave up my position voluntarily and hurried there. Between autumn and winter, I spent over eighty days in office. Since things worked out as I had hoped, I have entitled this piece “Returning Home” and dated the preface “the eleventh month of the year 405.”
I’m returning home
the garden would be all weeds if I didn’t
since enslaving my heart to my body
how depressed and miserable I have been
I realized I couldn’t restore the past
but I could make up for it in the future
I hadn’t gone too far astray
I was wrong yesterday but right today
my boat rocked in the lightest of winds
a gust blew open my robe
I asked a traveler about the way ahead
annoyed the dawn was so dim.
Seeing my roofline
I was so happy I ran
our houseboy was there to greet me
my children were waiting at the door
the paths around the yard were overgrown
but the pines and chrysanthemums were still there
I led my children into the house
a pitcher of wine was waiting.
I lifted it up and poured
looking out the south window I felt relieved
glad to see the fruit trees outside
it was so easy to be content with so little
I walked around the garden all day entranced
the gate was there but closed as usual
with the help of a cane I found my favorite spots
looking up I gazed into the distance
at mindless clouds rising from the peaks
at weary birds knowing to fly home
as the light began to fade
I touched a lone pine and stood there.
I’ve returned home
I’ve cut my ties and ended my missions
the world and I never got along
why keep traveling and searching
when I’m happy with the heartfelt talk of friends
and my care-dispelling books and zither
the neighbors say spring is nearly here
work in the west fields will start soon
instead of calling for a covered cart
I’ll be rowing my little boat
following secluded waterways
hiking in the higher hills
trees are budding and beginning to bloom
springs are bubbling and starting to flow
I admire how creatures adjust to the seasons
but I feel my life is coming to an end.
It’s over
so I won’t be staying in this world much longer
why not let my heart go if it wants
why am I worried where I’ll end up.
What I hope for isn’t wealth or fame
nor the realm of the gods
but to go somewhere on a sunny day alone
or put aside my cane and plow
or climb the east hills and drone
or write a poem by a stream
ride my transformation to my final home
enjoy the will of Heaven free of doubts.

